Please, calm me. Please please this hurts—all of it.
And I will do my best to make the best and make the world smile.
I will fight the good fight.
But please please please
I need you to love me.
I need you to help me.
Because I’m a mess of aimless, useless and superior intelligence
That has no place to rest when weary
I’m so damn weary
I need you to be strong enough to take me.
Love me at my honesty.
Love me that I feel like the only one left.
Love me that I wanted to love so badly
Love me I don’t feel worth it
Love me that I feel broken
Love me that I am exhausted and molding
Love me that I mold to be loved
Love me that I don’t feel worthy
Love me that I’m angry
Love me that I’m fat
Love me that I’m intense
Love me that I talk
Float on the words I say
Love me at my poorness
My credit score
Love me at my work ethic
Love me at hating men
Love me at feeling too fat
Love me at Acne
Love me at cocky
And pretend cocky
love me for relentless trying
Love me at my give ups
Love me at my stretch marks
Love me at my loose skin
Love me at my shame
Love me at my impulsivity
Love me at my intensity
Love me at my manipulation
Love me at my insincerity
Love me at my jealousy
Love me at resentment
Love me when I mess it up
Love me at 30 text messages
Love me at 100
Love me at destruction at every level I do it.
Love me at my credentials
Love me at my envy
Love me that I’m not healed
Love me that I’m not her, or her, or her.
Love me needy
Love me vain
Love me at exhaustion with inability to be understood
Love me at resentment
Love me at hating you
Love me for not trusting you
Love me for hating love
Love me for meanness
Love me for messy floors
Love me for staring
Love me for spacing
Love me for flirting
Love me for playing
Love me for stealing
Love me for cheating
Love me for flirting
Love me for coping
Love me for lying
Love me for drugs
Love me for sex
Love me for conflict
Love me for regret
Love me for spilling myself
Love me not being your dream
Love me for annoying
Love me for forgetting
Love me for pouting
Love me for shouting
Love me for distancing
Love me discomfort
Love me without feeling
Love me, because I don’t want to be pretend to be anything worth love anymore.
And I don’t want to hurt anymore
I’m desperate
Actually, nevermind.
I don’t trust that you can
And I would rather be alone
Because I don’t trust it
I don’t like you
You don’t want me
You’re incapable
Not strong enough
Not rich enough
Not smart enough
Not witty enough
Not easy enough
Not right
Not fun
Not free
because you’re a coward
and you’re shallow
You so want me
you’re too damn desperate
you couldn’t take me
you’re really selfish
You smell weird
you annoy me
you would hurt me
you don’t get me
no one gets me
You wouldn’t want me
I don’t want you
It’s not worth it
Love wouldn’t date me
And it’s broken
And Love is exactly why I hate me.